Bad day heroes

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We all need that someone who can just give us a boost emotionally. In my life I have never needed an answer like I did on Wednesday. I was praying to God for an answer or some kind of direction as I faced a dilemma. This dilemma had to do with a (virtual) social gathering that I didn't partake in, my reason was that I needed a break from anything that has to do with people. These days I have a lot on my plate, so I prefer not to be involved in anything that will add to the stress that I have now. I am always looking forward to being peaceful and not be under pressure. So this social gathering was a social network group and I immediately exited. Then I felt so guilty about leaving. Naturally I am very impulsive, its one of the things I am working on improving in my life. I like to make sure that I do not offend people with my actions. The downside of this is that I tend to ignore how I feel about a certain situation as long as I don't offend others. I felt ashamed like I did not want to be amongst other Christians and if you are familiar with 'church' guilt you will know what I'm talking about.

Christians have a general understanding on how each of us behave towards each other. For example you have to be a reliable person and if you're not going to be able to make it say to a meeting, you need to let others know.

There is a certain level of accountability you have to honor.

I felt guilty about my action because I thought it had a potential to taint my reputation.

So I had a horrible week trying to think of ways to justify my actions.

I prayed about it, asking God to guide me and take this anxiety away.

It was quiet, I didn't get a response to my prayer. I know this might sound so silly but there are situations we as Christians find ourselves feeling so guilty about.

I stopped praying and just said if God can just give me a sign, a word that will put me out of my misery.

I got a call from a dear friend who, without knowing anything about my anxiety, just brought a breath of fresh to my day.

I told her that she had no idea what she had done for me.

The guilt just vanished after that conversation.

I told myself that she was my "bad day heroine". It did not matter how God had intervened but I was pretty sure He was the only one who could have led her to my rescue.

Being a 'serial people pleaser' is difficult.

When you put yourself first it feels like you are committing a crime.

You don't get used to being selfish and do what makes you comfortable.

Mentally I know I have to work on these issues because they do not serve me as a person.

No matter how hard you try to make people happy you never succeed. Its one of the things that depress us and we keep quiet because we fear being labeled as weak.

I so wish this post could rescue some people who are in the same boat as I was that day.

We need to be okay with saying No, to create boundaries for our sanity.

We need to be able to live everyday content with our own decisions as long as they please GOD.

When we are healthy mentally, we get to rescue others we are feeling sad, we get to be "bad day heroes".

To my fellow Christians I'm am in no way saying we must not work together, but only do what you can, don't feel the need to justify your decision if you can't commit to a certain obligation. Others also need to be aware of your boundaries. - Avuyile Mngxitama-Diko #rookielifecoach